I WONDER

So I wonder how many people are interested in this blog? I mean, health and fitness are my passion but I'm not so sure that too many people feel that way.
Let me tell you about my day....
I have been fighting the flu for the last week, something I don't usually get. I have been running and running for the last couple of months and I know that I have been stressed and not looking out for myself. I'm now working 2 jobs again, although part time, I do feel that I have taken on a bit too much. The flu has made me slow down, my body needed it and it's definitely time to get a little more organised and find some time just for me.
Today I went to our karate tournament, I did not participate in this one as I've found it hard to get to training this term with the extra work and all. I watched the senior girls fight full contact , no gloves and thought "thank god I'm not fighting" It was not the reaction I was after, I wanted to be thinking "I wish I was out there giving it a go". Now I am in two minds about even going back. You see all of the other senior girls are about 15 years younger than me, scary isn't it? I don't think of myself as old and I certainly give as much as I take but I am noticing the injuries and the time they take to heal and I'm starting to wonder if it's all worth it.
I will sleep on it and hopefully when I get up tomorrow and do my skipping, boxing and punching bag workout I might have a little more focus as to what I want in regards to my karate.